Holy Crap....That actually happened.

As most of you know Marc and I found out we are PREGNANT!!!! I just wanted to blog about really how it went down and really how big of a miracle it actually is.

Ok, after a 9 month (I said 6 in my last blog, but my math isn't so good. LOL) break Marc and I decided to head back to our RE and jump on the bandwagon. While there we were diagnosed with unknown reasons for infertility since our labs are good and my PCOS does not effect me as much as it could. ANY WHO...we decided to do IVF. This means 12 weeks of drugs and the procedure in June.

Here we are waiting for my cycle to start so we can get jumping on this wagon. Since I knew once I started the medication I couldn't drink, I spent the next few weeks having a hell of a time! Marc and I just enjoyed each minute together and had a ton of fun! ;) Well the week my cycle was supposed to start it didn't. Of course it didn't....why would it start the one time I wanted it to? I called my doctor and she said we should wait until Friday (a week after I probably should have started) and if my cycle hadn't started by then they would give me something. OK, now I am waiting an entire week...HOLY CRAP...are you kidding me! We all know I HATE waiting!!! So I am talking to my mom on the phone that night and she said "Wouldn't it be funny if you were pregnant?" REALLY MOM....we have tried for 2 1/2 years WITH medical interventions and that hasn't gotten it done, I KNOW we can't do it on our own....she just laughed. Now mind you Marc and I have already taken out the loan for our IVF. So the next morning I wake up and like anyone who has been TTC for a while, I have tons of pregnancy tests just chilling in my bathroom. Something told me I should take one. So...before I took a shower I took a test. Then I looked at it and swore I saw a line....but how could there be a second line? This is not possible! NO FREAKING WAY!!! So I took a shower and came back, sure enough there was a faint line. I about shit my pants. NO KIDDING.....I started screaming for Marc to come upstairs. At first he didn't see the line then when I moved the test he did!!! The line was so faint  we didn't want to get our hopes up. I went to work and showed a few people (who I would trust with my life) the picture....OF COURSE I TOOK A PICTURE OF IT! I TAKE PICTURES OF EVERYTHING!!!!! They were all pretty certain there was a line. FREAKING OUT I called my doctor and set up a blood test. I went home at lunch and took a digital test just to make sure. Sure enough....PREGNANT!!! Now I was really freaking out! I texted my husband the picture and I think it was at that moment this whole thing became real for us!

I head to the doctor in shock. They took my blood and told me I have to wait until the next day to find out my results....it was the longest 24 hours of my life! They call me the next day and tell me the test is positive, but my HCG levels (pregnancy hormone) is only a 23 which is kind of low. SO, I had to go back Monday morning for another test. All weekend, every symptom, sign, anything I was convinced was something bad...or was it? It was like I was f'ing with my own head. Being calm after so long of negative experiences when TTC is hard to say the least. So I go in Monday morning and they draw my blood. I wait and wait all day for a call. Finally at 4:30 I called myself, but the office was closed (which I knew) Not even 5 minutes later they call. My HCG had jumped to the 300's. YAY This was the moment I knew it was all real. We really are pregnant!!!!!! (So of course it had to be posted on Facebook haha)

Now don't get me wrong I am only about 5 weeks pregnant. I still have fears of miscarrying and other things going wrong. I think that comes from knowing too much about infertility and whatever else. It's nice to be educated, but there is something to be said about ignorance is bliss. This morning I had some spotting of dark blood and some cramping..obviously I FREAKED OUT!!! My doctor called me to set up our first ultra sound and when I mentioned that to her she told me it wasn't something to be too concerned about...it happens with a lot of people...let's just see how the ultra sound goes. That all put me at ease which is good.

I am still wrapping my head around the fact that I am pregnant. I have been blessed with a miracle! Who would have thought we could have done this naturally. I am a true believer all the positive thoughts and prayers we received from all of you helped in achieving this miracle. If you don't mind could you continue such things as we head through this pregnancy? We are very appreciate of all the love we have received. Our friends and family are amazing, I am fortunate to have the best doctors in the world and my husband is beyond words! I promise to keep everyone updated on our journey! Here's to a happy and healthy next 9 months and a beautiful baby at the end!!!!!!