So now that Marc and I have made the decision to do IVF it seems as though the thing we are waiting for to get started is taking it's sweet ass time. I mean really, every month for 2 years I have been hoping not to get it and to be pregnant. The one month I need it to start before we can move forward in our journey it's not here! YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING ME!!!! We all know I am not the most patient person as it is and to know this is what we are waiting for to go forward with the one thing we are most excited about, it's KILLING ME!!!!! This whole infertility process is a waiting game, has been for 2 years.... I am just so ready for it to be over!!!!!
I also struggle with how to feel about the whole process. I mean, do I stay positive and think it's going to work only to be that much more disappointed if it doesn't or do I stay skeptical and not be as upset if it doesn't? I feel much different about the IVF cycle considering the percentage our doctor gave us...I am much more positive, in fact I am just making plans as if it is going to work, but I still get a little nervous....the unknown is a scary thing.
You know what does rock though? My family and friends! I know I say that in every blog, but seriously they are amazing. I am very much looking forward to spring break and all the lunch dates I have planned and the time I get to spend with all of them. This journey would be much worse with out all the amazing love and support I have gotten. Life is pretty amazing....now if this process could just speed up a tad bit I would be very happy!
So now that Marc and I have made the decision to do IVF it seems as though the thing we are waiting for to get started is taking it's sweet ass time. I mean really, every month for 2 years I have been hoping not to get it and to be pregnant. The one month I need it to start before we can move forward in our journey it's not here! YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING ME!!!! We all know I am not the most patient person as it is and to know this is what we are waiting for to go forward with the one thing we are most excited about, it's KILLING ME!!!!! This whole infertility process is a waiting game, has been for 2 years.... I am just so ready for it to be over!!!!!
I also struggle with how to feel about the whole process. I mean, do I stay positive and think it's going to work only to be that much more disappointed if it doesn't or do I stay skeptical and not be as upset if it doesn't? I feel much different about the IVF cycle considering the percentage our doctor gave us...I am much more positive, in fact I am just making plans as if it is going to work, but I still get a little nervous....the unknown is a scary thing.
You know what does rock though? My family and friends! I know I say that in every blog, but seriously they are amazing. I am very much looking forward to spring break and all the lunch dates I have planned and the time I get to spend with all of them. This journey would be much worse with out all the amazing love and support I have gotten. Life is pretty amazing....now if this process could just speed up a tad bit I would be very happy!
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