Reactions to IVF

Isn't it crazy that one decision, one moment in time, one conversation can change the whole course of your life? That's exactly how I feel with deciding to move forward with IVF. The ink is on paper for the doctors office, the loan is processing through as we have been qualified and the magic is off and running. I think the reason it is so life altering for me is because I have a strong feeling this is going to work. To be honest with you, I did not have these feelings when TTC on clomid and/or doing the IUI's. I was very skeptical that those would work, knowing deep down (pretty sure) they weren't going to help. I don't have that with the IVF. I am in a really good place, I feel fantastic and I am super positive about the experience and journey we are about to embark on. You know when you just know things are going to go well? That is how I am feeling about the IVF. The last time I had this feeling was when I met Marc. I knew from day one that he was going to be in my life forever. That worked out, so I am hopeful this will as well.

The reactions from my friends and family have been amazing, kind of overwhelming. I knew everyone was holding good thoughts for us and wanting us to succeed in our journey. What I was not prepared for was the truly emotional reactions and deepest love I received from many of my friends and family. It really opened my eyes that decisions like this not only effect us, but those around us. It also proves the fact that I am the luckiest girl in the world to have people in my life that care so deeply about me! It truly moving and brings me to tears that others can love so deeply. To each of you, I want you to know I love you and cherish each moment we have together and am so thankful to have you here for this journey.

I can't believe how relaxed I am.....I mean starting 2 years ago when we began the TTC journey I think I have been wound up pretty tight, not sleeping very well and always pretty anxious wanting to become a mom. I would cry at the drop of a hat, or the mention of babies and the conversation of why we don't have any yet. It has been a very long, stressful, emotional CRAZY CONFUSING 2 years. Although we are not yet pregnant, I am much more relaxed and excited about our jounrney. We have a plan, one I am confident in and it's all about waiting at this point. In the past few days since we have made this decision I am sleeping like a rock and sleeping in way past what I normally am capable of. I truly believe I am at peace with our journey and I can relax for a while. It is much needed. I am in a much better mood and am enjoying things just that much more! It has put life into perspective and I am unwilling to waste energy on people or things that are not positive in my life. All I care about is enjoying this time an becoming a mommy.

I am so thankful to have Marc on this journey with me. He has been the most supportive, amazing, loving man through this whole process. I know us struggling to conceive is not any easier for him than me and I know it isn't easy for him to see me so upset, but he has been a trooper. I couldn't imagine going through this very painful experience with out him by my side. I love Marc more each day and am truly blessed to have such a strong and amazing man in my life.

I will continue to blog about my journey as it is very therapeutic for me and an easy way to get all the information out. I am looking forward to seeing what the next year brings for the Henderson family!