And here we go with round 2 of our IUI's

My Nephew & I in Junction

Happy Wednesday! I hope you all had a fabulous Memorial Day weekend. Marc and I went to Grand Junction with family and rode our ATV's. It was delightful!

Marc & our niece in Junction

Last Tuesday I went to the doctor for ultra sound #1 of this round of IUI. Both ovaries were clear which is good. Some woman (especially with PCOS) form large cysts on their ovaries and are unable to continue through the IUI process. I have been lucky not have that either round. Today was ultra sound #2 on cycle day 11. Last round on this cycle day 11 ultra sound I had no follicles on my right side and one on my left that measured around an 11. Today I had one follicle on my right side (which is the side less effected by my PCOS and the one we want to ovulate from) which was a 13 and ALSO had one on my left side which measured at an 18. Two positive things about this ultra sound: One-I have 2 follicles instead of just one! Two-the follicles are bigger on day 11 this time then they were last time! My left ovary is still stuck on top of my uterus and seems like it will probably stay there. Who knows if that is causing some of my problems. Not sure the doctor really knows either since we can't figure out why it is there. I will go in for another ultra sound on Friday to see how large the follicles have gotten. My doctor is pretty sure that Monday will be our day for the IUI. If that's the case I will give myself a trigger shot on Saturday and will keep our fingers crossed for Monday! I want to be excited that I have more than one follicle and they are larger, quicker, but I am reserved about having those feelings considering last time I was optimistic and it didn't work. We shall see. I think this round I will only be explaining my symptoms and feelings to my husband and will be more private about them so if it doesn't work, I am not having to explain myself to others and have people continue to ask questions. BUT, we can use all the finger crossing, good thought thinking, praying if that's your sort of thing we can get. We are grateful for all the support and love and will hopefully have good news soon!

Some of my favorite people & greatest
supporters.

The one thing I did struggle with today is having to ask Marc to take some time off on Monday. It is pretty short notice and I know that he has a hard time taking time off, that is just how the company is. He was not happy about having to try and figure out how to get the time off. I feel guilty about it because not only is it my fault we are struggling to have children, it's also my fault that Marc is having to fight to get the time off. It is a seriously sensitive subject and just his reaction of frustration made me cry. I don't know if I will ever feel better about the fact that it's my fault this happening. I am the only one making me feel that way, no one else has ever said anything about it, but it's still in the back of my mind often. Just something I am going to have to work through.

My softball girls

  So, I will continue to focus on other things like softball. We won our game (the first of the season) last night and it's non-stop softball from here on out! GO RAIDERS! We also have ATV and Camping trips planned and lots of time with family and friends. I have an amazing life with amazing people in it and have a lot to be thankful for. I try to think about all of these things when I am having a rough day. I love all of you and am grateful for your support and love. XOXO