REALLY?!?!?!?

I have decided to be extremely honest in this blog because I really can't help myself or others unless I do that. So with that I have to say it kills me to see people who are not ready (financially, emotionally etc) to have a baby just popping them out! I have a student who is 17 and has a 2 year old......he is by NO means ready for a baby...Friday I counted 3 pregnant girls walking around the hallways showing off their bellies like show-and-tell. IT MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL!!!! It's not even just the teenagers...I can't stand seeing woman who are drug addicted, can't afford themselves let alone a child, violent, and prison bound having kids. I teach students who are the products of these woman and let me tell you...it is not fair to them to have to go through the crap they do, it's not fair to society for having to foot the bill and deal with their actions since 90% of the time these students will continue the cycle (although I try very hard to break that cycle) and really it's not fair that some of us who are ready and able to take care of children have to watch that crap happen. ( I know the last one is me being selfish/jealous/heartless, but SERIOUSLY it KILLS ME!) Not only do I have to see it on a daily basis at my job there are freaking shows about it.....TEEN MOM! REALLY? Although this show is a guilty pleasure of mine...I just don't get it! Oh and my favorite movie The Pregnancy Pact..are you FREAKING KIDDING ME! *taking a deep breath*

I know what you are thinking...."Her last blog was so positive." You're right it was and most of the time that is how I stay..Positive. However, I am only human and have moments where I just want to explode. While we are on the subject of things that make me want to explode...let's talk about how everyone asks, "How is the baby-maiking coming?" WELL....if I had good news don't you think I would share it with you?! I MEAN REALLY!!!!!!! Now don't get me wrong I love our family and friends, but having to answer the same question over and over again makes me want to vomit. I try not to let it consume my every thought, but when people keep asking it makes that VERY difficult! I promise when I have good news I will tell you! That's usually my response! On a positive note, having people ask makes me have to talk about it and that has helped me become more comfortable with really what is going on and has driven my desire to help/inspire other woman who are going through this with me!

I am blessed to have such an amazing man in my life who is going through this journey with me. He is very understanding of my fear and anxiety and helps me through it each step of the way and for that I am forever greatful. He wants to have a happy healthy family as much as I do and we will be in this journey together until the end! I love you Marc!

Until next time...remember we are all human and can only handle so much before we explode so write about it...talk about it...share it! We all need a safe place to handle what comes to us so we can come out on top! Here's to working hard and being proud of the outcome!